A lot of people asked me so far: How did you decide to do it? How did you decide to take off considering that you have a business to run and responsibilities to attend to?
For me I had to deal with some beliefs and patterns that we’re getting in the way ( you might resonate with a few):
- I had to release a belief that my self-worth equals my achievements and my busyness equals productivity. Until the beginning of this year my self worth and self respect were based solely on how busy my calendar was and how many projects I participated in. This belief kept me working hard, kept me thinking that enjoying life, taking time to eat without multitasking, having empty space with nothing to do was a waste of time. My biggest fear was to be unproductive and not useful. How else do you deserve love as if not with your achievements and your busy schedule that makes you seem important and your work meaningful? I had to dig deep and re-frame my values. It had to be wisdom gained through experience not theory. Through self-reflection and lots of journalling, by remembering my happiest and most fulfilling moments I realized that they had nothing to do with my work or achievements. With time and more reflection I released the fear that having a day focused on joy and leisure was not a waste of time or unproductive. And pushing the boundary further than having months solely for adventure, exploration and my personal growth we re not a waste of time either. What is your self-worth based on? Would you respect and love yourself if you weren’t a busy bee or if you lost your job? Self-worth should be inherent. As a soul having a physical experience, YOU are worthy for being you. And you deserve me-time, enough rest, good food eaten without rush or distraction, daily movement and time for regular reflection and spiritual practice. It is up to you to design your life to provide it to yourself and to do that you will have to cultivate self-love and self-worth.
- ‘My business will fall apart’ was another big fear. I poured lots of energy and time into building my practice and putting a hold on working with clients or responding to media requests seemed like an irresponsible thing to do. However, I always believed that giving to others have to come from a container that is overflowing. Lately, I haven’t been feeling as excited and drawn to work as I was in the first couple of years. Of course, I could keep doing it just because this is what I know and because it makes money but it’s not motivating for me. I m committed to live as closely aligned to my values and passions as I can. Doing the work I love and feel passionate about is something that is very important to me. Taking almost a year off will help me get a new perspective on how I want to continue working with women and, hopefully, fill up my container with a new level of passion. What are you holding on to that is not as exciting as it was before? Where in your life are you ready for a transformation?
- The third major pattern was cultivating trust and surrender. Isn’t it a comforting thought that You can control and choose what happens in your life. The only thing is that control is an energy sucking illusion. I had to come to terms that there is something besides me guiding my life. Trust is so hard for me. Trusting my body over my brain is hard. Trusting that things will workout the way they are meant to was also difficult but it allows for a possibility that I don’t have to struggle with the present. I m where I m because I need to be here. It is true now, was true yesterday and will be true tomorrow: so I can somewhat relax and let of of control and meticulous planning and watch life unfold in front of me the way it is meant to. My meditation practice evolved along with the trust I gained. I started feeling more connected to my teachers and the divine energy. I also started finishing my meditation with a prayer (so good and unusual for a pitta mind to rely on guidance not just logic). I kept remembering Dr Claudia Welch’s words that pittas mind needs surrender the most. (Read type A/ overachiever). Surrender to the feet of God. Let go. Let the flow take over. This was my practice over the passed few months. Trust and surrender is a daily practice for me and I still like to control certain things. For example, I trust that we will find wonderful local food in most places we go but I also sent packages to a few places in the world with my favorite teas, herbs and Dr Ohirra probiotics. You know, just to help out the universe to take care of me!:) Where in your life are you trying to control the uncontrollable? Where can you let go and surrender?
While we travel the world, I would love to still stay in touch with you! I will share my adventures and lots of pictures on Instagram @happynadyaz and will blog when time allows. I also have prepared some articles about Ayurveda for you and will release them one at a time.