In my year end review and 2015 visioning I got a recurrent theme of SPACE and STILLNESS coming up.
No matter how much I tried to talk myself into action, energetic planning, program creation, it doesn’t feel aligned right now. It took me almost a month to make peace with what my heart and soul desires. My mind didn’t want to accept the validity of not actively working on new projects, not planning online programs, or writing new blogs.
Instead I feel pulled towards creating space, emptiness, meditating, journaling, pondering, and just being. I read more, walk on the beach, cook more, create more rituals throughout my day.
I am remembering what it feels like to BE instead of constantly DO.
Holding boundaries for space is not easy. I have a strong pattern to reach for my phone to check email first thing in the morning and there is always endless stuff to do if I open the computer. Breaking existing patterns takes commitment and conscious intentional action.
I am creating sacred boundaries to help me honor the true desire I have – TO BE STILL, TO MAKE SPACE.
I am releasing myself from time.
I am increasing my bandwidth for space and emptiness
Things that were hiding are coming out (good and bad). Sharing and expressing helps to release and clear the space.
I am allowing myself not to keep structure all the time and keep asking the most important question ‘WHY?” I am going back to looking at my WHY for everything I do: from my yoga practice, to my meditation, to the food that I choose to eat or avoid.
This entire process was jump started about a month ago during an intense day of work with my mentor. This wise woman helped me get clear on my current life and patterns, and the life I want to be living, things I want to leave behind and things I want to bring in.
One of my favorite exercises we did was finding pictures that represent feelings, states, and patterns that I want to leave behind
and those that I want to experience and create.
2015 is a year of CLARITY, EASE, COMMITMENT, JOY, ADVENTURE, AND STILLNESS.
RITUAL, PAUSE, DIVINE PRESENCE, CONNECTION, AND FEMININE ENERGY will be the tools I use.
My 2015 Power Mantra is CREATE HARMONY.
My 2015 vision is still in the process of being created and I am patiently waiting for it for emerge.
Often we jump into action based on an impulse, a burst of desire. We don't take time (who has it?) to pause, to dive deep, to reflect, to ask questions and let answers come up. Intentional movement along your life, intentional design, conscious choice is the shortest way to living the life your truly want. But you have to take time to get clear on what you truly want to fill your life with. Who do you want to be? What do you want to feel and experience?
January is a perfect time to create your vision, to get clear. Don't rush into hustle of bustle of empty resolutions. Go deep, create a foundation so strong that motivation won't be an issue. It will be easy to align your actions with your true desires, needs, and goals.